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I wish, sometimes I wish Saxon could talk back and we could have a conversation. I think he would have a lot of great life insight. I can tell, Saxon is a wise cat. Much wiser than I.
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Me too Michael, meeee too!
(Source: fuckyeah-theoffice, via scrantonwitchproject)
i dont want to be an adult anymore.
or made a record or whatever, it would be called “Somehow, I get by…”
i dunno,. I was trying to fall asleep and that came to me…who knows dot dot dot
But this will always cheer me up. 3 more episodes and Michael Scott is gone. tear… It’s like when Mulder left the X-Files. That was terrible… how I managed I do not know!
(Source: onwednesdayswewearpinkk)
Sometimes, I can’t figure myself out. I feel like I go thru periods of extreme highs and energy and everything is fucking brilliant. Then there’s the lows where I feel depressed and all I can do is get fucked up and pretend everything is fine. I keep trying to pretend everything is fine so I don’t kill myself from stress and everything is going to be fine. It’s going to be fine fine fine. Maybe if I say it enough, I will actually believe it.
I started out 2011 pretty good. Was social, went on a date or at least was being proactive about it. Hanging out with friends and now it’s March and that’s all gone to shit. I haven’t pursued dating or any effort in that department in over a month. Im not even sure I want to. I don’t know. I think Ive seen too many movies and tv shows and what I expect from dating situations isn’t really how it goes in real life. You don’t just magically feel this connection to someone and you live a life of great love. It just doesn’t work like that. You have to work for it. It just just happen like I seem to think sometimes. Maybe I just have never been in a real true relationship. I guess Jake was. The rest is all superficial bullshit that was meaningless. Relationships out of delusion.
And I turn 30 in less than a month. Hannah asked if we should throw a party. My response was yeah and invite my 2 friends. I wasn’t as snotty as I seem like I could have been. I just want to ignore this and hope to fly under the radar. I took the day off work and I plan to eat sandweeches and watch tv and pet my cats. Or maybe in a month, Ill feel less depressed and want to be social, but any social activity is forced. Well, not all. But many. Or maybe I could start trying again. I did good for like a month and a half.
At least spring is coming and it will warm up, the snow will melt, Ill get to wear shorts again and no socks. My skin will be sticky and sweaty again. I will ride bike. I will go swimming. Ill walk the dogs with my roommate, go to shows, eat on patios, go on long walks, things will just be better. Things are always better when it’s warm out. Maybe even try my hand at gardening with Hannah. Oh and paint my room and bathroom. I have all these things to look forward to, but all I can do right now is I dunno…. I hate the word depressed, but I feel like that sometimes and lately Ive been feeling like that. So there.
Listening to Atom and his Package brings joy, however. Everything is fine. LIKEWHATMEWORRY?! MWHAHAHAHA
So if you gotta pray and you gotta sing You better pray and get it sung Cause there's gonna be an empty place
Where all your teeth once hung I'm gonna sock your ribs And stomp your toes And give your neck a crack And I'll break every bone individually In your sacroiliac